chapter 37:
interlude 2
âYes, sir. I remember you.â said Preacher. âBut itâs still going to be a while. Weâre pretty busy tonight, you know, Saturday night?â
The big bartender listened for a moment and scribbled on the top card of a small stack of index cards near the cash register. Rita, sitting across the bar sipping a small glass of brandy, watched Preacher closely.
âYes, sir. I understand.â said the barman, hanging up the phone.
âCustomer?â asked Rita.
Preacher nodded. âYes, but everyoneâs busy, and IâŠâ
âIâll take it.â said Rita quickly.
âThought you had a date?â
âNot anymore I donât. â But this is my last one.â
Preacher looked perplexed. âWhat?â
âIâm done. After this one tonight. After tonight, weâre even.â
Preacher stared at Rita, but did not respond. Then he asked. âWhy?â
âIâve made up my mind. Iâm going to take him back. Iâll still work with you. But Iâm done working for you. And, by the way, I never worked for you, understand?â
Preacher nodded his head slowly. âOkay.â he said. âGuyâs name is Jim. Room number 808. No price â nothing agreed on. Sounds pretty drunk. May just want some company. But the guyâs okay. I swear it. Talked to him for a couple hours earlier this evening before you came on. Just another lonely guy.â
âBartender.â yelled a red-faced man from across the room. âGive me another round of free beerâŠon the house.â
The Chief sat with three other menâa young red-haired fireman, a little fireman, and another man, not a fireman, dressed in a suit and tie. All of them were very drunk. Rita looked over at the Chief, startled and a little frightened by his booming voice. Quickly she finished her drink and started to walk from the room. Preacher did not answer the Chiefâs bellow. âGood luck, Rita. Heâs a good guy, I swear it. Not like last night.â he said.
âBeertender. Another free round on the house.â repeated the Chief, drunkenly.
Preacher came out from behind the bar and walked to the table in the far corner of the room. âThe partyâs over, gentlemen. Itâs time to go upstairs, or go home, or go somewhere else. This bar is closed.â said the tired bartender, quietly. âI told you that once already.â
âAnother round, beertender.â yelled the Chief, as if Preacher were still behind the bar.
The men at the table all laughed. Preacher stood over them, watching silently. Without warning, but by prearranged plan, the Chief struck a match on a box in his hand and flung it into the center of the table, igniting a small pile of napkins and papers and other trash. The Chief stood shakily and started to climb up onto the seat of his chair. âFiremen, man your hoses.â he commanded loudly.
âDonât you dare.â said Preacher.
The young red-haired fireman stood and started to climb onto his chair, fumbling with his zipper. Preacher took a quick step to reach him and pushed him to the floor. The little fireman, also standing, kicked Preacher solidly in the groin. But Preacher did not react. The little man backed away from him against the wall, pulling the man in the suit with him, using him as a shield. The red-haired man struggled to his feet and lunged toward the bartender. Preacher hit him once in the stomach, and he crumpled to the floor again, groaning in pain.
Standing alone, the Chief urinated on the small fire, extinguishing it. He smiled proudly and laughed out loud, strutting and crowing like a rooster in the morning. As the Chief climbed down from his chair, the big bartender caught him, picked him up, and sat him down on the table in the puddle of his own urine and ashes. âHey, watch it, man.â said the Chief. âThis is my good suit. I have to wear it again tomorrow.â
Preacher slapped him across the face. The Chief held his jaw in pain. âWhat did I tell you?â asked Preacher. âNow sit there. Donât you move. Donât you dare move a muscle. No, donât try to put it away. Leave everything just the way it is now. Until the police get here. â I told you not to do it. â And the rest of you stay right where you are, too. I should have done it last night. But tonight, Iâm definitely calling the police.â
The Chief sat very still, terrified, frozen motionless with fear. He felt the warm wetness soaking his pants, and he smelled the fire and the urine. But he was afraid to move.
chapter 38:
the party (iii)
(the sermon on the mountain)
âThou shalt not commit adulteryâuntil youâre an adult. Thou shalt not killâunless the son-of-a-bitch deserves it. Love your neighbor every chance you get.â said JesĂșs, standing, swaying drunkenly, in front of the others. âThatâs all the commandments you need to know.â
Joey and Rusty sat together in the same big chair, paying no attention to JesĂșs, perhaps asleep. Junior seemed to sleep in the other big chair. Cowboy sat nodding in front of the television set, drifting in and out of sleep.
âBlessed are the peacemakers, for they shall make peace.â said JesĂșs. âBlessed are they who hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they shall see God. No, thatâs not right. How does it go again?â
JesĂșs reached into his left breast pocket and pulled out the tattered, shattered, stabbed-through-the-heart New Testament bible. Quickly he found his place and began to read aloud. âBlessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.â
In his mind and imagination, Jesus sees the multitudes gathered in front of him seeking his blessing. He sees their robes and their flocks of sheep and goats. He feels the softness of his own pure white robe. And the purity of his own body, without stain or sin. He feels the heat of the desert sun as he preaches the word of God the Father. His Father. He multiplies the loaves and fishes. He turns the water into wine. And the world is a good place. A fair place. A place without stain or sin, just as he is. Paradise. Heaven on Earth.
âYeah, thatâs it, âbe filledâ. And now it really starts to get good.â
JesĂșs continued reading. âBlessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.â
âYeah, Iâd like to see God. I got a thing or two to talk with him about. Can I get an AMEN?â said JesĂșs, looking out at Joey and Rusty, snuggled together in their chair, Junior asleep in the other chair, and Cowboy in front of the television set.
JesĂșs could not tell if Cowboy was asleep or awake. No one said AMEN. JesĂșs read further. âBlessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God. Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.â
âThatâs it.â said JesĂșs. âThatâs all of them. But then they say, âO Lord, can you teach us how to pray.â And he says the Lordâs Prayer.â
JesĂșs paused a moment, then began. âOur Father⊠which art in Heaven…â but he stopped.
After a minute, he began again. âO God, who is part of us and we are part of you. Holy is our name, we are one. We are the kingdom, the power, and the glory. Forever and ever. Amen.â said JesĂșs. âThatâs how it ought to be. We donât need all those parts in the middle.â
JesĂșs looked up, but there was no comment from the congregation.
After another moment he continued, no longer looking at the others in the room, but rather talking to himself. âThe difference between the best of us and the worst of us is that much.â said JesĂșs, holding his finger and thumb together. âThe hero of the New Testament isnât Jesus, although he is the son of God and the star of the show. Itâs Judas. Jesus canât become Christ until Judas betrays him. Itâs like that old saying âI think, therefore I am.â which the chaplain said is really, âI doubt, therefore I think, therefore I am.â So itâs not âJesus therefore Christ.â Itâs really âJudas, therefore Jesus, therefore Christ. — Thatâs what I learned in the Bible class. Thatâs what the chaplain taught us. And thatâs what this little Bible says.â
âEverything happens for a reason.â said JesĂșs. âAnd everybody is here for a reason. The evil that a man does dies with him, but the good that a man does lives long after he is gone.â
JesĂșs sat down among his pillows. âAMEN.â he said at last, laying over on the pillows on his side.
But Joey and Rusty, and Junior and Cowboy were all asleep.
And the television droned softly in the background.
chapter 39:
the lovers
Jim cracked the door of his hotel room, without removing the chain, in answer to a light knock. âThe Preacher says youâd like some company.â said a female voice.
âYes.â
âIâm Rita.â
Jim closed the door and unhooked the chain, then opened it again, but only wide enough for the woman to enter sideways.
âJim.â said the salesman.
âWhatâs the matter, Jim? You nervous?â
âWhat?â
âThe chain and all. Are you nervous?â
Jim laughed. âA little, I guess.â
âWhy? — You done it before, havenât you?â said Rita, smiling, looking around the suite.
âYes.â said Jim, forcing himself to smile. âIt was just the phoning and everything. Kind of nerve-racking, you know?â
âThatâs the way itâs done here in the big City, honey.â
âI see.â said Jim, beginning to unbuckle his belt.
âJust a minute.â said Rita, reaching out to push his hands down to his sides. âWe got things to talk over first. You got anything to drink?â
âGot a half bottle of bourbon.â
âSounds nice. Why donât you fix us a drink?â said Rita, walking farther into the room, sitting down on the edge of a chair. âAnd while youâre doing that, could you let me look at some identification?â
âIdentification? Why?â
âJust to be careful. Just to be on the safe side.â
âOkay. I guess so.â said Jim, reaching for his wallet, taking a card from it. âThis is my driverâs license. That good enough?â
Rita accepted the card handed to her, and began to study it intently. Jim walked through one of the bedrooms to the bathroom and prepared two glasses of bourbon and ice. When Jim left the room, Rita stood and paced to the window, pretending to study the driverâs license, but actually studying the contents of the bedroom and sitting room, looking for anything small and valuable that she could hock or sell. As Jim reentered the sitting room, Rita returned to the edge of the chair and sat down again.
âThank you.â said Rita, accepting a glass of bourbon.
Jim nodded and sat down in another chair near her.
âWhere do you work, Jim?â
âIâm a salesman. Just passing through town. Iâm not from around here.â
âYou got something that says where you work on it? Some kind of work I.D.?â
âWell, no. I had one, but all the customers know me now, so I just threw it away. I thought I wouldnât need it anymore.â
âYou donât have anything with your name and work on it?â
âIâve got business cards.â
âAnyone can have a business card printed up, Jim.â
âI donât understand. What do you need all this stuff for?â
âYou donât know?â
Jim shook his head.
The girl smiled. âAre you a police officer, Jim?â she asked.
âNo. â No. Of course not. â Oh, I see. No, Iâm not a police officer, Rita.â
âWhat other identification do you have, Jim?â
âI thought all I had to say was I wasnât a cop. They canât say theyâre not cops, can they?â
âTheyâre not supposed to. â But⊠itâs called entrapment, and theyâre not supposed to do it. But sometimes a guy will say heâs not a cop and then, ten minutes later, heâs arresting you.â
Jim nodded sympathetically.
He reached for his wallet again, and shuffled through his cards. âI got credit cards.â
âWe donât take credit cards. â Itâs got to be something with your name on it and the address where you live.â
âSocial security card? Draft card? But they donât have my address.â
âThose can be faked.â
Jim began to look through his wallet again. âI didnât know. I never thought thatâŠâ
âHere. Let me look.â said Rita, taking the cards and wallet from his hands, looking through them.
âI never thought it would be this much trouble.â said Jim, taking a long drink from his glass of bourbon.
âI have to be careful.â said Rita, counting the exact amount of money the wallet contains.
Jim nodded. âI guess so.â
âWhatâs this?â asked Rita, holding up a worn, tattered brown card.
âMy library card.â said Jim. âBut itâs expired. I almost threw it away, too, but I thought maybe it would be easier to get a new one if you turned the old one back in.â
Rita handed back wallet and cards, smiling. âItâs got the same address on it as your driverâs license.â
âYes, it does. I thinkâŠsay, is that good enough?â
âI guess. I mean who would fake a library card, you know?â
Jim smiled, putting his wallet away. âHonest. Iâm not a cop. I wonât hurt you. I swear.â
âI believe you, Jim.â said Rita.
There was a silence. The man and woman drank their drinks.
âWhat do you want to do?â said Rita.
âYou knowâŠsex.â
âWhat kind of sex?â
âJust sex. Ordinary sex.â
âHow much do you want to pay?â
âWhatever the price is. How much does it cost?â
âYou name a price. What do you usually pay?â
âWell, I donât knowâŠhell, thirty dollars.â
âI usually get forty.â
âAll right then, forty it is. Iâll pay you whatever you usually get.â
Rita nodded, surprised at the lack of further haggling. She stood and walked to the bathroom. âYou get undressed.â she said. âI got to go to the bathroom for a minute.â
After Rita left the sitting room, Jim stood and unbuckled his belt, letting his pants fall to the floor. He undressed completely, scattering his clothes around the sitting room and bedroom, draping them on furniture and over doors. He lay down on the bed stiffly and tried to relax. Jim waited for a long time, unable to get comfortable, contemplating the situation. Finally, Rita came out of the bathroom, still dressed. Jim stood and walked to her, naked. He put his arms around her. âYou got the forty?â she asked.
Jim frowned. âItâs in my wallet. Do you have to have it now?â
âYes.â
Jim found his pants where he dropped them and reached into the back pocket for his wallet. He paid the woman with two twenties. âIs that correct?â he asked.
Rita nodded, laughing. âLet me put your wallet out of the way somewhere.â she said. âWhere it will be safe.â
Jim handed Rita the wallet, and she carried it to the bedroom dresser and put it down, then walked back to him. âYouâre funny.â she said. âAre you always so trusting?â
âWhat?â
âAre you always so nice? I mean, no argument about the price. Why didnât you get your back up and say, âListen, bitch, I never paid forty for a piece of ass in my life. Thirty is my top price. Thatâs it.ââ
Rita began to remove her clothes.
âYou said forty. So, forty it is. Thatâs the price if you say so.â
âHere. Help me.â said Rita. âUnzip me, will you?â
Jim unzipped the back of her tight turtleneck sweater. At once he noticed bruises and thumb marks on both her shoulders and both sides of her neck. âWhat happened to you?â he said. âDid someone hurt you? Is that a black eye? Did Preacher do this to you?â
Rita laughed. âItâs nothing. My old man gets mad at me sometimes when he drinks. But he always says heâs sorry in the morning.â
Jim nodded. âI understand. Some men are like that, arenât they? But Iâm not. Iâd never do that to Monica, no matter what she did. But I donât haggle over money. Itâs not polite.â
âI would have had to take it, if you said thirty dollars was all youâd pay or all you had.â said Rita, talking rapidly now, continuing to undress. âI mean I came all the way up here. I was already here. I couldnât have backed out unless you said youâd only give me ten or something.â
âIâm a salesman myself.â said Jim. âI donât like it when people argue about the price of something. The price is the price, period.â
âYouâre nice.â said Rita softly, turning to him, naked, taking off her large round glasses. âNot like some of the other guys. So nice. Probably too nice. But Iâll be nice to you, too. Iâll be good. Iâll make it worth forty dollars.â
Rita lay down on the bed on her back, pulling Jim down on top of her. He kissed her, and although she closed her lips to keep his tongue out of her mouth, she responded. âWhatâs the matter?â asked Jim.
âI can see everywhere except inside your mouth.â said Rita. âCanât see if there are any sores in there or not. Iâm just protecting myself. I donât need to be out of work for a month.â
Jim laughed. âI donât have venereal disease.â he said quickly. âUnless my wife gave it to me.â
âYouâd be surprised.â said Rita. âIt happens.â
Jim laughed again. His hand stroked her stomach tenderly. He moved his mouth down her neck to her shoulder, kissing her skin softly. He licked first one nipple, then the other, gently, touching her softly with his fingers.â
Suddenly she laughed and pushed his head against her breast. âSo gentle, too. Go ahead, suck on it. Suck on it hard. Donât be afraid. You canât hurt me. Bite on it. You wonât hurt me. I love it. â You canât hurt me like that. Not by just sucking on me.â
Prodded by her hands and fingernails Jim responded to her urging, and sucked and bit and pulled with his lips and teeth on her breasts and shoulders and stomach, burying his face in her flesh. âCome on.â she urged, challenging him. âBite on it. Chomp down, boy. You may not get anything this good ever again.â
* * * * * * * *
âMaybe I just donât turn you on. That could be it. Some girls just donât turn some guys on.â
Jim lay silently on the bed, naked, his face turned away from her. Rita rested her head on her hand, leaning on her elbow, her other hand extended toward Jim across the bed. âWe could wait a little while. Sleep a little.â she said softly. âYou know, lay here and rest and try again later.â
Rita lay her head back down on the pillow.
âNo.â said Jim, without turning.
âWhat?â
âI said âNOâ. Go away. Go home. Donât you understand anything?â
âI tried to help you.â said Rita. âThatâs more than I would have done for most guys.â
âGet out. Go home.â said Jim, still not turning.
âYou rest a while. Sleep for an hour. Then if you want me to go, Iâll go. â I donât mind. Maybe we can try again in an hour.â
âGoddammit.â said Jim, finally turning toward her. âI said âGET OUTâ.â
Rita was startled. Jim turned back to the wall.
âOkay. Iâll leave.â she said, getting up, starting to dress. âIâm sorry it didnât work out. I tried to help you.â
âItâs not your fault.â said Jim to the wall.
Rita finished dressing in silence.
âI could stay until morning.â she said finally. âI can sleep just as well here as I could at home. Really, Jim, I donât mind.â
Jim turned again, suddenly, screaming. âGoddammit, will you get the fuck out of here, you goddamn slut whore bitch.â
Rita was stunned, but recovered quickly. Jim turned back to the wall.
âOkay, okay, Iâm going.â said Rita.
She turned and picked up Jimâs wallet from the dresser, taking the money from it and the expired library card, putting it in her purse. She walked out of the bedroom. âSo long, lover.â she said sweetly, forcing herself to laugh, slamming the front door of the living room as she stomped out.
chapter 40:
the party (iv)
In the bathroom Junior lay on his stomach over the rim of the bathtub, a pool of vomit under his chin. Joey and Rusty had positioned him so that he would not drown in his own vomit. In the bedroom, Joey and Rusty were conferring on the bed near the bathroom, arguing heatedly, but quietly. The blind Cowboy stood up from his soft chair in front of the television set and moved toward JesĂșs, who sat with his eyes closed among the four pillows from the second bedroom thrown against the window wall in front of the balcony.
Suddenly, JesĂșs startled from his trance. âHey, what the fuck are you doing, old man?â
The Cowboy had squatted in the corner, near JesĂșs, urinating on the floor. JesĂșs stood and grabbed the old man, but the Cowboy did not stop urinating. JesĂșs released the man disgustedly, pushing him to the floor, and turned to Joey and Rusty in the bedroom. âWhat the fuck are you two up to in there?â he said. âHow come you arenât watching this old bastard whoâs trying to piss up the whole fucking living room?â
JesĂșs walked over to the two men in the bedroom. Rusty looked up at him, his eyes narrowed and out of focus. âYou can fuck him, too.â Rusty said to JesĂșs. âThatâs fair. Heâll be good. And heâll never know. Heâs too drunk. â And besides he starts working for Leon over behind the Block tomorrow. Leon will fuck him tomorrow anyway. So itâs not like weâre doing anything that wonât happen later.â
JesĂșs looked at Rusty disgustedly. âWho. The boy?â he asked. âHow do you know heâs going to work for Leon?â
âHe told us before you got here.â said Rusty, jerking a thumb toward the bathroom. âYou can go first.â
JesĂșs was astonished, then very angry. âI used to work for Leon over behind the Block.â he said heatedly. âDid you know that? When I was that boyâs age and Rita was pregnant. But I never told anybody. Not even Rita. She doesnât even know. Now I told you. Now you know.â
âI knowed.â said Joey.
âI wonât have any part in it.â said JesĂșs firmly, looking around the room, trying to find the boy. âAnd neither will you. I invited the kid here, and I wonât let you do anything to him.â
âWhy did you invite him then?â said Rusty. âIf not for that.â
âI invited him here to celebrate my farewell party.â said JesĂșs. âDonât you understand? Canât you see? I invited all of you here to get drunk because Iâm going away. But nobodyâs going to do anything to that boy while Iâm still here.â
âWhy?â asked Joey.
JesĂșs looked at Joey, surprised. âNot you, too. I expect this kind of shit out of Rustyâhe thinks with his dick half the time. But not you.â
âWhy you going to away again?â asked Joey.
âJust … Well, no reason really. I came back to nothing. Rita doesnât want me anymore.â
âSure, she does. She just mad cause you went away for too long.â
âI donât know, Joey. I just donât know what to do anymore.â
âYou can go first.â repeated Rusty. Then me. Then Joey.â
âGoddammit, Rusty, I said NO. Donât you understand NO?â said JesĂșs, pushing him away. âWhat do you think weâre going to do? All of us fuck that little boy, and then we all get up and leave? Is that the way we do things? Is that why I invited the kid, to do that to him?â
âIf we do it, then thatâs why you invited him. If we donât do it, then you invited him for some other reason. And Leonâs going to do it to him tomorrow anyway. Thereâs a party at noon. Theyâre going to do him then. He told us. â WhyâŠwhatâŠwho do you think he is?â
âStop saying that name. If you say Leon one more time, Iâm going to hurt you.â said JesĂșs, pushing Rusty away again. âWho are you? What am I? What are we?â
âThereâs only one rule, Jesus.â said Rusty. âYou always said so before. Only one rule. If you can get it, take it. Thatâs the rule. You always said so before. Whatâs different now?â
JesĂșs shook his head. âThat was before. I know better now. Iâm changing. Iâm learning. I havenât changed yet, but Iâm changing.â
âThe kidâs going to be out in the street tomorrow selling what we can get tonight for free. Whatâs different, JesĂșs?â said Rusty.
âPimp bastard.â said JesĂșs. âThat pimp bastard, Leon.â
Rusty stood and walked to the bathroom.
âWhere the hell are you going?â said JesĂșs.
âTo piss.â said Rusty. âUnless you want me to piss in the corner like Cowboy.â
âDonât you touch that kid. â And donât close the door either.â said JesĂșs. âI want to be able to hear every move you make.â
JesĂșs listened intently until he heard the sound of urination.
âWhy?â asked Joey. âWhy you gots to go to away again?â
âItâs just not right.â said JesĂșs, unable to address the question. âThatâs all I know.â
Joey looked at JesĂșs, but said nothing.
JesĂșs whispered, changing the subject. âItâs not like youâre fucking some old drunk bitch for a dollar. This is just a little boy.â
âI know.â said Joey, crying softly.
âGoddammit, Rusty, whatâs taking you so long in there?â
Rusty did not answer.
âDonât worry, Jesus. Everythingâs going to be all right. I wasnât going to let him touch the boy. Heâs just mad at you. Heâs going to stay in there a few minutes till he ainât mad with you no more.â
In the bathroom, Rusty had moved the boy from the bathtub to the commode, and pulled his jeans and underwear down from his buttocks. He stuck his hands under the running water of the faucet in the sink and lathered his hands and fingers vigorously with soap. Quickly he stepped back into the bedroom. âCanât a man wash his hands in peace?â he asked.
JesĂșs looked at him, but did not speak.
âSee, Jesus.â said Joey. âEverythingâs all right. Just like I told you it was.â
Rusty stepped back into the bathroom and knelt behind the boy, probing his anus with soapy fingers, lathering him up. Suddenly the boy moaned, struggling to come back to consciousness.
âWhat the fuck are you doing in there, Rusty?â yelled JesĂșs.
There was no response.
JesĂșs jumped off the bed and got to his feet, pushing Joey aside, running to the bathroom. âGoddamn you.â he said, grabbing Rusty by the back of the neck, dragging him to his feet.
The boy, unconscious, did not stir.
âI was just trying to see if the boy was all right.â said Rusty, refusing to turn around. âSometimes people need to spit up, and they die from not being able to spit up.â
âBullshit. Whyâd you take his pants down? — I told you nobody was going to do it, and I meant it.â said JesĂșs.
JesĂșs jerked Rusty out of the bathroom and threw him to the floor of the bedroom near the door, kicking at his face and exposed genitals. Rusty cowered against the door, rolling away from JesĂșsâs foot, turning his back to JesĂșs, trying to protect himself as he put his penis back into his pants. Unable to hurt Rusty, JesĂșs stopped kicking him. But he picked up the light globe and began to wave it threateningly at Rusty.
âYou stupid shit. I said NO, didnât I?â said JesĂșs, smashing the globe against the wall.
Meanwhile, Joey entered the bathroom and stood looking down at the boy. He leaned down and rubbed his hand gently on the boyâs bare backside as if comforting him. JesĂșs reentered the bathroom and pulled Joey away, too, but not as violently as he had done Rusty. âListen.â said JesĂșs, calming down, talking softly, but his voice full of menace. âWhy donât you guys go somewhere and fuck each other, if youâre so hot to fuck something.â
Joey and Rusty are silent. Rusty stood behind Joey, protecting himself with Joeyâs body.
âGet out of here. Both of you. And take this pissing old Cowboy bastard with you.â
JesĂșs walked into the living room and pulled the blind Cowboy, apparently asleep again, from the soft chair in front of the television, and hauled him to the front door, following Rusty and Joey. âGet out, goddammit.â yelled JesĂșs. âAll of you. And donât come back here tonight. Any of you. Donât come back, or Iâll kill you. Do you hear me? Iâll kill you all.â
Joey and Rusty cowered in fear of the angry JesĂșs. The old men left quietly, and JesĂșs locked the door of the room behind them and Cowboy. He walked back through the bedroom to the bathroom and knelt for a moment near the boy, his anger subsiding, smiling sadly. At once he smelled the stench of vomit and urine and blood, and again he smiled, turning to look at the boy. He moved the childâs arms to cradle his head, then lifted him up for a moment, listening for and hearing the sound of his muffled, labored breathing, slow and steady. âYouâre going to be okay, kid.â he said, combing the boyâs unruly red hair into place with his hand. âThey was going to do it to you for sure, but old Jesus stopped them. Youâre going to be okay.â
JesĂșs moved behind the boy in order to reach his pants and pulled them up. Quickly he put the boyâs clothes back on and buttoned his jeans. âIt ainât right.â he said. âIt wouldnât be right. But Leon ainât right neither. Heâll hurt you in the end, just like he hurt me. Thatâs who you should be shooting. Not Frank—- Leon. Youâre just like the fly.â
JesĂșs reached for the boyâs coat, checking the pockets, finding the gun and the money. He looked at the dollar bills hard, finding one much more worn and tattered than the others. Carefully, without thinking, he folds it into a square, a shape it assumes automatically, with great ease. JesĂșs put the money and gun back in the coat and tossed it away from him. âYouâre just like him.â he said, softly, feeling a sharp pain in his stomach and a sudden throbbing in his head. âYouâre just like me.â
In his mind and imagination, JesĂșs hears the boy say in a voice that sounds like Rita. âDo it. Just do it. Itâs what youâve always wanted to do. Just do it.â
âShit.â muttered JesĂșs. âGoddammit. Whatâs wrong with me?â
The boy moaned a response. âWhat?â asked JesĂșs, startled.
There was no answer, but JesĂșs reached out and lifted the boyâs head, and asked again. âWhat did you say?â
There was still no reply. JesĂșs shook the boy slightly, then hugged him to his body hard. âSay something. Say it again.â JesĂșs demanded.
The child moaned softly, and JesĂșs, desperate to stop the noise, grasped the boyâs throat and squeezed. The child moaned louder. JesĂșs squeezed the boyâs neck with all his strength, between his large hands, until the child no longer made any noises.
JesĂșs lay up against the boy for a long time. Finally, he rose and stood over the child. Stooping low, JesĂșs lifted the body and stood with it for a moment over the commode. âJust like the fly.â he thought.
Quickly he turned and carried the boyâs body through the bedroom to the living room to the window wall, and with difficulty, out onto the balcony. He studied the view for a moment or two, then carried the boyâs body to the side of the balcony and dropped it into the alley below.
Exhausted, JesĂșs went back into the suite and through the living room and fell onto the bed. He lay there for a few minutes, trying to think.
âSaved him. Just like the fly. God sent me here tonight to save his life. Saved him from Leon. Saved him from behind the Block. Saved him from my life.â
But he was unable to concentrate. In a few moments, he was asleep.
chapter 41: jack
âHat trick. Three times in one night.
What a start. What a great beginning!
Why didnât I try to do it before?
Beer.
Pussy.
Beer Pussy.
âEight ball in the side pocket.â
Dollar. Beer.
âPay close attention, men. The exercise this afternoon could save your life in combat.â
âRemember the key word BRASS.
B.âŠ.âŠâŠ… BREATHE.
RâŠâŠâŠâŠ..RELAX.
AâŠ.âŠâŠâŠ.AIM.
SâŠâŠâŠâŠ…SIGHT PICTURE.
Second SâŠ..SQUEEZE.
Remember the key word BRASS.â
âThe only toast we ever drink to up in here, Jack. TO WOMEN.â
âTo women.â
Woman.
Pussy.
Woman Pussy.
Sissy. Beer. Woman. Pussy.
Cat. Raincoat girl.
Sissy. Beer. Woman. Pussy. CAT.
Raincoat swimmer girl.
âYou want pussy.
Go to church.
Go down there in the morning.
Tell them you is going overseas.
Leaving right away right now.
Youâll get all the pussy you want.ââ
